P.c.o.s More Condition_symptoms

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shit, nothing to say.
The usual.

Because they always give more than you ever received? ...
is a defect or a virtue? ...

Someday I will get the same as surrender, with the same force and intensity?

is one of the many doubts that I had during the day today.

Well today was one of those in life, where one no longer wants to exist, and no one wants to know nothing of their approaching death every day.

Because my heart is not right for reasons I shall not now.
Everything influences me twice, from the typical fights at school.
to a contempt of anyone.

remember from my childhood, I was always kind.
But also remember that goodness made me understand that not all people are worthwhile.
Although I know that it is.
... I can not even identify those people who just want me to get me out of something.

Being nice is not a virtue, is a defect.
A defect which ... let others take advantage of you so gigantic.

hate to be so.
But unfortunately I am.

I give, give and give more.
While I do not get nothing, nothing ... nothing.

Why?. S

henever the typical response is ambiguous ...
"It is not expressed, or it costs me ... Finally, I am cold"
If I pay for every time someone said that to me during my life, I would ... extremandamente millionaire.

What I can do?.

want to stop suffering.
want ... people to abstain from unhealthy.
want to forget and start again.

But I need help.

And frankly right now I'm lonely. Independent
many people say "Francisco'm with you ..." Because

'm not really anyone around ... as before.
Maybe I'm hurt.
For people of my small circle of friends.
And only see darkness donde there are rays of light.

think of it, I am not alone, but as always I said. My heart
kill me.
for being weak, be sensible, be very innocent.
be gullible, perhaps even as a child,

guess that many people around me know I am well and take advantage.

know that I can hardly say ... "No" ...
know that I can hardly open up the rest.
know how much I suffer difficulty doing things as simple as a slight.

may want to see any other way is not.

"Being a liar does not know loneliness."

I isolate myself in these moments to the fullest, do not talk to anyone inside and outside of school. End
those "friendsas it is the only thing one can be healthy, is being selfish. Where

undecided what each person does harm to others.
Where it becomes insipid daily.
Where nothing is left.

things happen in my head as sensible as that of a tree leaf fall in autumn and then transformed into compost.

It Like a leaf that falls and the rest follows.
To become something that can only help the progimo ... feel good about herself.

Finally I want. And I'll get abstaining
love, love or even appreciate.

From today my heart went into a self-regeneration, which perhaps can be more cold. Where

not influence me as a desprecio, or words with hatred and bitterness.

will not bond with anyone.
I will refrain from living life, and only the analyze. Displaying
my chances of change and what is best for me.

From today I am a person completely calculator. What is your posibilidade
for your convenience.

I swear.

Attn:
Mushi ... Mushi or maybe longer, if not, LiveEVIL.